Harder Than It Seemed

This 'taking care of me' business is harder than I expected. It's hard for me to make time for myself, and harder still to get myself moving. I've spent the last couple of days working out my answers to questions Cici gave me (the career coach), and that's been tough, too. Three accomplishments I'm most proud of? Hmmm. . .I feel like I've accomplished a lot, and I think other people would say that I have, but I don't feel particularly proud of any of it. Ten things that are weighing me down? Where to start. . .Still, I'm almost through the four different questionnaires. Almost. . .

Career Coach, It Is

I've been feeling really stuck lately. It's not just the health limbo that I've been in. It's also that I feel like I'm ready to move on professionally, but I am having a difficult time deciding what it is that I want to do next. I had toyed with the idea of hiring a career coach. I even had one in mind--a woman who worked in my field previously, and now helps a lot of people in my field find new work. But then I thought--that's just stupid. I'm going to spend money to talk to someone about what I'm going to do? I can do that myself.

And then four months went by, and I felt like I was still in the same place, and getting nowhere fast.

Earier this week, a friend of mine asked what I was going to do, and I told her I was feeling stuck. She encouraged me to hire a career coach.

That little encouragement was all I needed. I called the woman yesterday, and had my first appointment this morning. I think she is EXACTLY what I need.

Um, Do Champagne and Cake Count?

Because together with chicken salad, that was my dinner, and I thoroughly enjoyed every bit of it.

Monday: Lavender Bath

I took a long, relaxing bath this morning. Kitty perched on the edge of the tub, very unhelpfully dipping his tail in periodically, but purring all the while.

Month Two

Well, as you may have noticed, it didn't last. I got really down about the eternal frustration of having these lingering health issues, and not be able to TTC. I'm feeling optimistic again, though, and know that I need to take care of myself. So, I'm back at it.

I guess it hasn't been a complete failure so far. . .I'm still off caffeine, I am proud to say. I don't miss it as much as I thought I would, actually. I've been drinking a lot of different herbal teas, or warm apple juice with cinnamon. I've also gained about five pounds. Ideally, I'd like to gain five more, so I'm happy with that as a start. I've also been working really reasonable hours (something much closer to 40, although still with some occasional late nights. . .but still, not the 60-80+ that it had been).

One of the things I've been wanting to do for forever is become fully fluent in Spanish. Today, I downloaded a free first lesson in Spanish, to test out some software I'm thinking of buying. So far, I think I like it. It's fairly inexpensive, so I might buy the first module tomorrow.